The Velvet Black
Lupin stilled, and began to probe her surroundings as far as she could with her senses. There were murmurs from other women in the salon - a lady was having trouble with her beribboned decollatage, and the maid struggled to help her through the haze of inebriation the lady palpably exuded.But the mark of normalcy that surrounded Lupin seemed to hide a deeper lack - an eerie lack - as if plots were being actively excoriated and covered up. Lupin stood very straight and tall and grave, and kenw that soon she would see why the journal had led her to Paris - why it would lead her no further, no doubt. Or at least, not any further under her own control.
There was little she could do; however, it was not her own fate that bothered her at the moment, it was the visions of Lord Grefham. Silent, white, shot and slaughtered in all sorts of ways in her head. Was it that she WANTED his death? Was that where these visions emanated from? But no, she knew beyond a shadow that her own fullest life was lived near him - with him. And she loved him. She loved him selflessly - even distant from her, her care of him was greater than her care of herself. It was without question and with the greatest joy.
So she stood - still - and did not move. For she could not. She could not budge herself, suddenly, she was as stone. Note capable of her own propulsion in the face of an oncoming decision she could hardly bear to think of. But she forced herself forward, to the dark window, the idea in her mind. She stood illumined for a moment against the light.
Then she swiftly swung about, her gray silken skirts billowing in the low, golden light of the candle flames, She picked up a comb set out - and tucked it quickly into her bodice. She straightened a stray curl that was artistically powdered: so lightly that the color shone through.
She took herself neatly out of the salon and then, knowing her pursuers were only pausing for a few moments - took herself down the hall into the depths of the house. They had not decided yet how to chase her, they waited uncertain of her identity. Her only chance was to seal her image as a mistress and force Lord Grefham to escape. But how to do it?
She heard footsteps behind her - soft, padding, certain. She crept softly, softly away down the darkened corridors. So dark it was like walking in black velvet. She could almost feel it soft and thick against her face, and behind her the nebulous unknown undulating away from her.
She hurried. She was alone - or was she only alone in her own mind? She could not tell. She was disoriented by her own decision to action. She was alone in her thoughts, perhaps cut off from her senses! She slipped around a corner and, she felt, towards safety. She fled towards it, embraced by the darknes, running into the bright, bright black. She ran her fingers agains the wall to guid her (the house seemed to ulsate in its cool splendor against her fingertips), then suddenly she ran into something, and it grabbed her.
The urge to fight overcame all rational thought. Skirts, curls, powder flew as she scrabbled free. The embracing arms - which she realized had been strangely gentle - released her.
"I am surprised at your struggle at the embrace," drawled a cool voice from the black, but it was laced with cruelty. "When so recently you ran to it."
"Alistair," she breathed - and seemed to fall towards him. She stumbled, and landed somewhere on his person. His arms surrounded her again, as if by accident. She wrappped herself to him - presing eveyr bit of her into him, revelling in his presence, even his angry presence.
"Oh lord." She whispered, dazed.
" I asked you not to call me that," he remarked, and then turning her face to his, he kissed her with an intensity she had never known. He seemed to possess her for a moment, until she reached back with her lips, her embrace, and commanded him as well. This only strengthened his action. He took her by the upper arms and pulled her hard to him - kissing her, taking the lead.
"So - it was freedom you desired," he remarked quietly, as he ppulled away. He sank back to her, almost helplessly, and his lips drifted towards her ear. "I could offer you one, you know."
She searched for his eyes through the black, her heart beating so quickly it would certainly stop.
"Leave with me Grefham," she said darkly, gruffly - commanding. She braced her hands on his shoulders "You must leave with me."
He was silent for a moment that stretched away to infinity in the black, and he seemed to imperceptably draw away from her. She shook her head, suddenly desiring to communicate to him all the things she had held back in their time together, but not knowing how to go about it. He felt the tremor of her movement against his chin, and instinctually drew her in closer, as if afraid she would leave again.
"No," she told him, "you are in danger," her hand had somehow moved upwards and lay against his cheek. She moved to pull it away, but was caught by his own hand and was brought to his lips passionately. She could not resist leaning into him, but pulled away again in but half a moment. "you must leave, Grefham."
Despite his action, his voice was cold, as if the movement had been agians his own will. He released her hand slowly. "I believe, my dear, I have more social standing than that - even with your VERY dear friend." His voice was cold, but his hand still held hers, warmly.
Her brows creased in confusion, then cleared. "Don't be a fool, Grefham. It was you yourself who told me there were those who wish me ill. They do not stop with me. You, too, are in the heart of this danger, and I. Will. Not. Have. You. Hurt," she ground out the last words haltingly and with gritty determination, her eyes burning with bright, banked flames.
